I’ve actually left my previous company at the beginning of August. I was actively job hunting. Really, when you start hesitating going to work, there’s definitely something wrong. You will feel like as though you are being forced to complete your tasks unwillingly. Even you have completed your tasks, you will still be in the did-i-screw-that-up mode. Not sure about my colleagues tho, but that was me. People always say, if you have issues, talk to your boss. Numerous times, my big boss would say, “you dont like it here, then leave”. So, i dont see the point of talking.
As time goes on, i start to have these migraines. Up till now, it still lingers. I even went and see a neurologist and went for MRI scan. Well, of cos there is nothing wrong with my head. I spoke to a few friends on what i was going through, it was kept in me for some time before i get to talk to someone. My friend said it was perhaps i was having panic attacks. I got my chamomile tea and i got my lavender burning essence thingie. I was still having the same issue. So, my aunt suggested to go and see a therapist. i went and see a therapist. honestly, i didnt really see any improvement. so i stopped.
During the period i was having all these migraines, i was on MC as well. Never in my working history i have MCs back to back. So, looking at the MCs i have took, i decided to call it quits. With immediate effect. While another stress fall onto me praying and hoping the company will not take their action for i did not serve my 1 month notice, i kept looking for job.
I had a few interviews lined up. Sometimes, when u think interviews are only for companies to evaluate you, you are wrong. Interviews are for both parties to evaluate each other. You evaluate the company and the interviewers evaluate you on behalf of their companies. While you show sincerity wanting to serve for their company, they too need to show sincerity of wanting to hire u to be part of them. I agree on the term where there is no such thing as companies cannot survive without you, but i also believe that if the company wants to hire you, they should have an environment that you can work in.
I went for the interviews.
1, The hiring managers were horrible. They talk as though my face is stuck on the ceiling. They gave me the impression like, can you work with indians (no offense my fellow indian friends, that is exactly what happened), if you cannot work with indians then we shall not waste time here. So from here, im already feeling there’s racism issue. At the end, they didn’t offer me the job, which I secretly felt relieved.
2, I was made to wait for 30 mins. I strongly believe in respecting each other’s time. I went early. At least 15 minutes early. Then when the time comes, i was told to wait. Firstly, i was being passed around. From my understanding, i was suppose to be interview by this lady. Then “no, im not free, ask mr so and so to interview. Of cos i do not know who i was suppose to see at the beginning, but when i went in to the room. I was quite in disbelief. This guy was free all the time just sitting in his room. Not engaging on the phone or computer. So fine, maybe he is busy to think of his plans for the day. I was offered the job. Feeling there will be a lot of tai chi-ing, i turned it down.
After all that, i decided to pick a non-salary paying job. Real Estate Negotiator (REN). I have been wanting to explore this line. Knowing that i have zero knowledge, i still want to join and explore. I dont deny that it is tough. It is. Nothing comes easy. Especially good money. So, I have been in the line for 2 months now. Making calls was no biggie for me for my background. I just need to improve on face to face.
Im glad to have people who are supportive. I also have a bunch of people who isnt. :)
Now, spread around! As long as it is within Klang Valley, I will definitely try my best to assist. Wish me luck!