PD~

omg!

i cant wait!
PD!!!

a plan that was planned months back!

PD!!!

a place that i never stayed b4!

Lexis!

wheee!!!

Sick week...

My week sucks.

Monday was on midnite shift. 10 mins before my shift ends on Tuesday, I started to go toilet. Diarrhoea.

Office, twice.

Then after work, went and pick MrV up for breakfast. He was just done with his on call.

We're pretty disappointed cos the restaurant we wanted to go to was closed, so we went to some random kopitiam and boy the noodle sucked.

Then, another round at the restaurant...

We then headed back to subang. Went and see the dr.

Few more rounds at home. :(

Went mamak with lynn n justin.

Another round. -.-"

It was nice catching up with her. Gosh... Its been ages since I last saw them!

Wednesday came, morning shift. The diarrhoea slowed down.

Thursday it stopped.

But...

Today... It came back.

Sighs...

I knw. I'm disgusting talking abt my diarrhoea. I never had diarrhoea for the whole week long!! That's crazy!

Ok. I'm disgusted with myself too. I shall stop.
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Respect...

typed a long ass post, but decided it was too personal so i ctrl+a and backspaced. 

i just felt im being disrespected. and being ignored the fact that i am being disrespected by a person whom i care most. 

i wanna talk about it, but then again and again im being brushed off until i felt lonely. so, i decided not to talk abt it. and just leave it. 

i bugged. twice. and end up being brushed off and i feel like slitting. 

thats why i decided to leave it. leaving it aside, i wont feel as shitty as feeling lonely. and worst, leads to slitting. 

and by leaving it, somehow i know that at the end, it will not work out. cos it lacks of communication. 

i dont want to be the person who keeps bugging and at the end did not get the result. i am not demanding for a result that i want, i just want a result that both parties agree to. 

at times like this, i wish i am single again. cos my phobia is kicking in, and it is not a pretty sight. 

so many bad experiences that until now i am restricting myself, stopping myself from so many things. bad experiences that made me think of nonsense. bad experiences that causes me needing constant reassurance. which, im not getting any btw. 

Life has now been explained to you

On the first day God created the dog. God said, "Sit all day by the door of your
house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. I will give you a life span of
twenty years." The dog said, "That's too long to be barking. Give me ten years and
I'll give you back the other ten." 
So God agreed. 

On the second day God created the monkey. God said, "Entertain people, do monkey
tricks and make them laugh. I'll give you a twenty-year life span." The monkey said,
"Monkey tricks for twenty years? I don't think so. Dog gave you back ten, so that's
what I'll do too, okay?"
And God agreed. 

On the third day God created the cow. "You must go to the field with the farmer all
day long and suffer under the sun, have calves, and give milk to support the farmer.
I will give you a life span of sixty years."
The cow said, "That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. Let
me have twenty and I'll give back the other forty." 
And God agreed again. 

On the fourth day God created man. God said, "Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your
life. I'll give you twenty years."
Man said, "What? Only twenty years? Tell you what, I'll take my twenty, and the forty
the cow gave back, and the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back,
that makes eighty, okay?" 

Okay," said God, "You've got a deal." 

So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play, and enjoy ourselves; the
next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family; the next ten years we do
monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren; and the last ten years we sit on the
front porch and bark at everyone. 

what is love?

love is when you smile like a silly dumb girl without realizing it while thinking of that particular person.

* just feel the sudden need to jot this down cos i just realized i was smiling like a dumb girl. heh... :P

Emo nite

I realised only few posts ago, I was being emo. And now I am in emo mood again.

I don't knw why. I blame it on my self esteem issues. I blame it on my self confidence issue. I blame it on myself. I'm blaming it on pms too tho.

Stupid mood swings...

I blog lesser now. I don't knw what to blog abt anymore. No inspiration. No life. As if my life is not interesting anymore. Sighs...

Today, I felt like crying. Since once I woke up. Emo level 100%. But end up I didn't. Just tears filled up my eyes and that's it.

No. Noone bullied me at work. Work is fine.

Then I came home. Showered. And watched tv alone. Comedy series. N I didn't laugh a single bit.

Ended up, I switch it off and try to sleep. But here I am, blogging on my BB.

So difficult to make myself happy anymore. Where's the old me?
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CNY 2012

well, a little gentle warning. lotsa pictures ahead... 

21 jan

2nd lou sang~ 

the CNY feel for this year started on the night before the reunion dinner. we had our pre-reunion dinner in subang parade with the 4th uncle and auntie with of cos my cousinss... 

granny being camera shyy... lol... 

MrV is back to Ayer Tawar with his siblings the same morning and i practically rot my day awaiting watching big bang theory until dinner time. and i thought by staying at home being on stand by is useful. =.=" 

called my 4th uncle and aunt for dinner and after dinner, we walked around in subang parade. well, parkson closed pretty late and i got myself a pair of jeans! yay! (its really difficult for me to buy clothes so im just being excited. :D)

granny and cousin wilson

 fortune cookie from japanese colleague, chie-san 

22 jan

HUGE SHRIMP!

the next day, i had to work morning shift. so the earlier preparation, i didnt manage to snap any picts. when i got home, freshen up a lil and waited for the rest to come. 

 prepping...

i think this would be the 2nd year we made steamboat for reunion dinner. well... its easy. easy to prepare and easy to clean up. and watever we cant finish, we keep and use for next meal. or even can use them to cook maggi mee...

 MrV's fav. ^^

nomss~ 

kinboy being all excited with all my aunts and uncles and cousins over. he was soo busy that night looking and following ppl in and out. and look at the face! smiling all night long!

feastingg... 

other than steamboat, we cannot not have my grandma's best dish. braised pork with sea cucumber. and rice...   

cousins diggin in...  

wilson attempting to pop the bottle without hurting anyone... lol... 

sparkling juice... yums... 

lucky draw...

we have this tradition every reunion dinner. as dessert, we will have soya with tong yuin. and in all of it will have red bean fillings. only one with chocolate filling. we will all chip in some cash to feed the ang pao. whoever who ate the chocolate filling will be the lucky one taking the ang pao... 

and the lucky one this year is cousin tracy. 

23 jan

the usual 1st day of cny, all of us will be in jinjang, kepong. surprisingly, we are the only family this year. no idea where are the rest. there goes my ang pao collection. :P 

again, i am working morning shift. right after my shift, i apps'ed bernard and joann, and they were like. "no, we havent even left subang yet!" =.="" which is good! cos it means i didnt missed out much. hehe... 

once i arrived, they started with their manicure mini bar... after that, gambled a few rounds and we took our dinner. the leftovers from the steamboat the night before. 

well, while we were having our dinner, grandma merajuk'ed a lil. she said we were fighting for food like we never eat for a long time. which made ALL of us went 'huh?!' ended up, all the grandchildren went in the room one by one to pujuk her. and... failed miserably... =.="

after that, she fell asleep, we continued our dinner and more gambling and she was ok all over again! 

obviously, grandma didnt have dinner. so once we reached subang, we went for mamak so that she can eat something before heading home. not that we didnt keep any food for her but she keep pushing ALL of us away from the room. 

headed home, and i slept like a pig. 

ok. below will have lotsa yada yada yada... just wanna keep note on what was i up to during cny. 

24 jan

MrV is back~ had dinner with him and his brother and headed home. nothing much on that day tho... 

25 jan

had dinner with mom, aunt and grandma in ss15. i guess it is bcos of the crowd, the food was just so so... but then it was nice... ^^

after dinner, went over to auntie jane's place. ah wei bought something back from ipoh and wanted to pass some to grandma so we went over and collect them. 

26 jan 

hrm. nothing much. finish noon shift and headed home. the silly boy slept all the way. =.="

27 jan

went over to jess's place for steamboat dinner. and gambled and boy we laughed a lot while gambling. we played 'in between'. and i almost died from heart attack. ok. over exaggerated. but close enough. 

it was nice seeing jess and von again. :)

28 jan

MrV went back first and rest... and slept all the way again. while i was at work. then picked him up to settle some old habit. smoke. drove ard and drove to usj19... and went home for dinner... 

29 jan

i hv to stay back for the 2 hrs i took off early on 27th. so i have to work till 12am. MrV is on-call tonight. which means, i'll be sleeping alone tonight. T.T 

cant wait till tmrw! wheeeeeeeeeee~~ ^^