Tuesday, March 6, 2018

The Last Time

From the moment you hold your baby in your arms,
you will never be the same.
You might long for the person you were before,
When you had freedom and time,
And nothing in particular to worry about.

You will know tiredness like you never knew it before,
And days will run into days that are exactly the same,
Full of feedings and burping,
Nappy changes and crying,
Whining and fighting,
Naps or a lack of naps,
It might seem like a never-ending cycle.

But don’t forget …
There is a last time for everything.
There will come a time when you will feed your baby
for the very last time.
They will fall asleep on you after a long day
And it will be the last time you ever hold your sleeping child.

One day you will carry them on your hip then set them down,
And never pick them up that way again.
You will scrub their hair in the bath one night
And from that day on, they will want to bathe alone.
They will hold your hand to cross the road,
Then never reach for it again.
They will creep into your room at midnight for cuddles,
And it will be the last night you ever wake to this.

One afternoon you will sing “the wheels on the bus”
and do all the actions,
Then never sing them that song again.
They will kiss you goodbye at the school gate,
The next day they will ask to walk to the gate alone.
You will read a final bedtime story and wipe your last dirty face.
They will run to you with arms raised for the very last time.

The thing is, you won’t even know it’s the last time
Until there are no more times, and even then,
It will take you a while to realize.

So while you are living in these times,
remember there are only so many of them.
And when they are gone,
you will yearn for just one more day of them.

For one last time.


Thursday, November 30, 2017

Hello Chloe

This was first blogged on Dayre platform. Since they've announced they are shutting down Dayre, I thought I should put this down here instead. More pictures and some entry changes here and there. 

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Letter to my first child...

Dear Little One,

As I am typing this, you are bouncing away in my tummy. As if you are doing somersaults in my tummy. Every time you do that, I find it amusing. At the same time, I feel really relieved that you are growing well.

Monday, August 21, 2017

Finally chopped my hair!

After much contemplating, I decided to have my hair chopped.

My hair was so long, I was getting frustrated managing it. I used to rebond my hair at least once a year. However, in recent years I noticed my hair is thinning. So, I stopped doing any chemical shit on my hair and let it be.

I decided to have my hair cut cos, as I’ve said it, it is frustrating. Another reason was, to prepare myself for confinement. If I got frustrated because of my hair during confinement, I probably will use Ahbuii’s shaver and shave my hair bald.

Friday, August 18, 2017

Baby update!

The other day, me, Ahbuii and my MIL went to the hospital for a 2nd trimester scan. This 2nd trimester scan is needed because I am high-risk pregnancy.

The scan was good. Baby was about 433g. everything looks normal.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Baby Haul Part 1

Last month we went back KL and of cos, we need to buy some stuffs for the baby. And because the baby was shy and didn’t wanna show the gender, we need to go neutral first. Here are some items that we already bought. I didn’t dare to go crazy cos we didn’t know the gender yet.

Actually, I bought these without any direction. I do have a list of 'To Buys', but... I just felt a bit lost. First-time-mom lost. T.T