Monday, January 31, 2011

When a Bastard meets a Bitch

should have trusted my own 6th sense from the beginning that it was trouble. and trouble it is.

seldom i blog about rship. well... i do blog about rship. but this particular guy didnt want it to be announced so i lay low and didnt really went in details.

today... i am gonna vent...

i met this guy last year. had a few chat. and the chat was pretty frequent. and then came out to have a drink in finnegan's.


dunno why i bother to pixelate the name, but u guys shud be able to guessed it.

i am a person who hates to waste time. who hates to wait. who have a mind set of 'do 1st, think later'. we got so much in common, so i'd thought of giving it a go.

things werent that smooth at the beginning. constantly being ignored and neglected. coming from a call centre background, i pretty much gets it how busy can it be. so, i was being patient. and wait...

at 1st i didnt tell him i wanna start it off. i didnt say yes. just fling maybe? until there's once, he got in an accident. me being the worried me and knowing after such trauma, how bad it is to leave house to smoke, i volunteered to drive to his place to have a drink. not knowing the direction to his place. i took 1 hour to searched for the place. sighs... me being direction idiot la!

while having drinks, i remember there's 1 conversation that went :-
me : luckily i didnt say yes. if not, i sure lagi emo wan...
him : *he looked puzzled* i tot it was a yes already...

at that time, i didnt feel like i got a bf at all and he thought it was a yes? lol...
after the mamak session, we were on the phone cos he needed to guide me back to my place...
and this conversation happened.

him : please consider...
me : consider wat?
him : consider me...
me : what is there to consider abt u?
him : give me some time...
me : time for?
him : to sort back my life. myself. family. job. everything...
me : how much time do u need?
him : i dont know. 6 months?
me : *keeps quiet to think*
me : ok... dateline is on your bday next yr. it is more than 6 months. i guess it is enough for u.
him : haha... i knew it. but i understand where u're coming frm.
me : alrite. i reached d. thx. go get some rest d.

he then took his rest and went to the police station to make his report.

but 6 months didnt happened. i guess a guy being a guy, when he wants something, he wants to get it.

he came over and talked to me. saying he missed me and all that and he didnt want to wait. "pui ngo ngai" he said.

so the silly me accepted. it started.

oct 18. i officially swung back to a guy.

of cos i double confirmed by asking, so what are we now, he firmly answered "in a relationship". but he didnt wanna announce it. which, i "respected"...

slowly, it was getting better. from lots of neglection and ignoring. meeting him happened pretty frequently later on. during my midnite shifts, he would come over to have 1 hour break with me just to smoke.

finally, there's a trip to cherating. and i found out something. there's this one incident which i questioned him b4 did he screw her. he answered he didnt. but when i read the text msg, it says something like she missed him fucking her and ending it with "oh gawd! fuck me!". boy, isnt she a horny one? there are a few text msgs. i cant digest much. but i remember some of it was on 8th dec. a day after my bday...

he said he already ended it with her. i trusted... silly. i know.

we patched back after the cherating trip.

recently, the neglection and ignoring is back. at times, there's only 1 sms a day from him. meeting him up like what, 2 weeks once? lol...

no matter how i hate my 6th sense. i still have to love it. i sensed he is cheating. with the same girl. and why i love my 6th sense? cos i am already prepared, for the worst. :)

i kept quiet all the way. i do not have anything solid, just pieces of puzzles. but today... i decided stalk. no, not the using car and follow from behind kinda stalking. what era are u in? i stalked in facebook! and i saw a picture of them together. hugging. and that shirt. was the same shirt i saw in his car when he said he is going to seremban for a wedding dinner but forgot to bring his charger so i wont be able to be in touch with him. he is smart eh? but i got this puzzle fixed 1st. who is smarter?


Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Car Waxing at RM10

last week i wanted to send my car for a car wash. its been weeks since i last wash my car (my poor white vava. *sobs*). and sunday was the day for the charity drive to the orphanage (will cover this later).

so on saturday, i went looking high and low for a car wash place in kepong. and remembered Akira told me there's one opposite jusco and waxing is only cost at rm28. but i dont wanna wax. i just wanna wash due to my own budget constraint. :( so i went there to hunt. the 1st place i went to is closed. and the guy asked me to go further down, there's one more. so i drove along the shops and found it.

i checked with them the price of the car wash and i was being told it is rm10. my budget was rm10 so i just passed them my car keys and asked them to go ahead and wash.

while waiting, i noticed they were wiping every single corner of the car. and i thought, "wow. good service. very clean and very detail"... so i waited and waited.

when the guy said it is done, i took out a piece of rm50 and paid, awaiting for my balance of rm40.

but...

i was given rm12 only. =.=

i looked at him and told the guy that i asked for car wash only. and i thought it is rm10??

his facial expression changed. and started scolding his staff.

"you kata ini wax??" in a very angry tone.

then, he took out his money and gave me the total balance of rm40...

there, i had my car wax at rm10, accidently... :D

Friday, January 21, 2011

Luck starts

i shall conclude today is my lucky day!

well, ok. at least just the 1st half of it...

no. wait. its only 8am. not even half yet. we'll see how later. ^^

i woke up as early as 3am on 20th to meet him up for Iris. i was at level 27 i think. or was it level 28? hrm...
and i found out that all along the guild members thought im a guy. >.< except for my colleagues of cos.
then he went to sleep at about 6am and i continued playing. at one point when all my quest was completed. i was pretty lost cos no quest means low experience. low experience means difficult to level up!! i dunno wat to do to level up!!

thennnn... fellow guild members came online and went Lai Liu Ha. the place its called Laioha. and it sounds like Lai Liu Ha!! :X managed to get up to level 29 but about 89%. half way hanging... T.T but the lucky thing was, daily quest was around the corner. ngeks... 4pm. grabbed all the dailies, and wallahh~~ level 30. ^^ and during that time when i was playing, fortunate enough, someone from the guild is willing to help me with the job change quest. xie xie thingy! which was to whack 3 bosses. which was roving's boss, big foot's boss and one more i... forgot. hehe... not easy!! i died once while whacking roving's boss. T.T 31k exp, gone case... sobs...

i am now a warlock! ^^v
loving the AOE skills. :D

let's see. that was 3am up till 7pm. :X
damn no life. but a way to save marnee. ^^
but then my lappie was heating up like mad.
next would be my warrior to guardian. :D

needed to go back subang at 1st, but then i thought it was not neccesary so i skipped the idea.
and sorry for missing all the calls cos i was in anti-social mode. i only wanna be alone in the room. and desperate to level up. :X

i straight away slept at 7pm and woke up at 4:30am. partly was too much sleep alre. and another part is, i need to work. but 4:30am was too early to get ready for work. so i hang around in game and managed to get the experience from 30% to 50%. haha!

ok. i think i talk too much about the game alre. cannot help it. too happy with the job change. haha!!

after getting ready to work, went down to get my car and i just remembered my petrol tank was about to dry up. T.T
and the scary part is, when i look outside the apartment area, it was all jammed up. T.T
a neighbour auntie just parked her car, i think from sending her kids to school. well, not in a very proper manner but i still appreciate that she informed me. she asked if i am taking that way out. she said that way is all jammed up cos some construction is on-going. they are digging up the ground and there is only 1 lane available to move. and its a 2 way road. she even suggest to me to use another route.

i was actually freaking out already cos i needed to pump petrol AND take a longer route to work.

let me make it clear that i am one direction idiot. so when i know that road, i will die die use that road.

usually i leave home at 6:30am. today i left a lil late. 6:45am.

the usual route i would take is through the segambut dalam road. which the road is in bad condition. bumpy!! then cut out to mont kiara. den cut out to bangsar. den reach MV.

today... pump petrol at menjalara den using LDP. den through ss2. ok, i know its stupid to use ss2 and i know there's another way but i dunno how to use!! so anyways, through ss2, through the hospital. cut out to the federal highway. and thank God it was clear. no jam! den sampai MV.

reached office 5 minutes before my log in time. ^^

lucky day(morning) or wat?

shall see how is the rest of the day. :P

Saturday, January 15, 2011

happy or scary?

... or creepy?

i was working midnite shift this week, and when i saw an email from my team lead saying that he received a parcel on my behalf, i was surprised and curious. i obviously didnt know what is it and part of me was freaking out, scared that banks are sending letters to my office now?? o.O

so in the morning when team lead passed me the parcel, i saw the address was from pro-eyes, subang parade.



the exact place where i bought my specs last year. so at first i thought, what? belated xmas present?

but no...

as i opened the gdex plastic, and i saw this cute piggie box.



and when i opened the box, i saw the same box as my specs.



i was still thinking that perhaps it was complimentary from pro-eyes giving me the box? well, i cant help it. the box is nice and solid. it could be complimentary wat... :X

but no...

when i opened the box, the same leather specky case...



again i thought. ok... maybe it is still a complimentary specky casing? cos when i took the case and opened it, it was empty. and the casing is nice! leather lehhh...

but still... no...

i reached the green cloth below the casing... it was a spectacles. the exact same design i had and lost.



and... the specs is not cheap. so, it finally struck me. this is impossible be complimentary by pro-eyes anymore.

i freaked out.

along with the box, there's an envelope. and in the envelope, there's this 'letter'. or shall i say more surprise to freak me out...

it reads :-



i dont know who this person is, obviously. but this person sure did read my twits and blog. bcos from the last line in the letter telling me to drive safe. i remember i twit before saying that i drove like a blind fuck but its ok. i just ran through a few holes... and of cos, my blog post about me losing my specs...

so, tell me. happy? scary? creepy?

i sure do love surprises but this?? this is freaking me out...

to whoever it is, thanks a lot. but it is really creepy. thanks for scaring me. i would not use the specs until u reveal yourself.

this... is not a nice feeling at all!! ~~>.<~~

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

3 years of bad luck

am i having it now?

a friend of mine told me before, that everyone of us would go through at least 3 years of bad luck. or was is 7? i forgot. but 3 years is enough for me.

i am finally being struck with financial issues. till the extend of not eating sometimes. i hope i still can manage.

its been 3 months now. 3 months of not staying in subang. 3 months of staying in a rented apartment. 3 months of renovation. dont ask me what took so long. even i've been asking and i have no idea what took so long...

and it cant even be ready for chinese new year...

recently, i noticed i've been shying away from people again. 1 is bcos im too lazy to wear my mask on. 2 is im too lazy to banter with ppl. 3 is im too lazy to listen people's advise. 4 is im too lazy to look at people and say 'hey. im doing great!'. 5 is me being broke.

why whenever people asking how am i, i would always answer 'im doing great'? i always believe whenever u do positive stuffs, it will attract positive aura to yourself. so if i were to say 'im doing great', it will slowly attract positive aura, and your day would be great.

too positive huh? i know. but my life is so fucked up, that i need at least do something to balance it a lil.

gosh... my rantings all tak tentu arah already.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Anthony Neely - Sorry That I Loved You



For all of the time that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And I'm sorry for making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you everything that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won't make any difference tonight
But I'm hoping 'I'm sorry' will open your mind
To love love love, Love in your life

Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
I'm sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I hurt you
I'm so sorry that I loved you
I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I loved you

how come no more?

one of the few texting moments i find it warm and sweet...

him : haha. muacks. want cig or chocolates?
me : alcohol... :P
him : pay me -.-
me : orh... how much?
him : forever :)

<3

now... it is cold as ice...

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Entering the year of 2011 - The BBQ

been planning for the countdown for more than a month now, and i am glad how it turned up. :)

a week before the bbq, i went to tesco in kepong to get some of the stuffs 1st so that we would not rush to get everything on that day itself. i guess everyone wants to do bbq last minute cos when i was in tesco, there are no more skewers... :( and some of the bbq stuffs oso no more d. and the funny thing is, when i look for the plastic cutleries, they oni left forks, spoons finish. =.= so i bought only a few stuffs and left. and worried if everything will be in order on that day.

i think i always worry too much. sighs...



the day for the bbq has arrived. during day time when everyone is still in the office, everyone is already in holiday mood. lol... while i was suffering from the pain i was having. my dear auntie has to visit on that day. jess said, 'its ok. beer will cure the pain later'. =.= but my auntie visit saved me from something. which will be told later... :D

jess and samson left early to get the chicken wings cos it is marinated by jess's mom. :)

5:15pm strikes and i got myself changed into more comfortable baju. shorts and razor back baju. :P
went for shopping with yvonne and our own designated kuli, paul at carrefour. to my horror, they dont have skewers too! whyyy sooo manyy ppl bbq wannn!?
yvonne asked me to call samson and jess to seek for SOS. and yep! at the end they manage to find the damn skewers.


yummy chicken wings, thanks to jess... :)

me, yvonne and paul arrived at samson's placed at about 7pm. jess, samson, jason and nicholas was already waiting by the pool side. well, they cant do anything cos the charcoal and fire starter was with me. :P they began starting the fire once the charcoal arrived.


and the bbq havoc starts.


the chef, louise who refused to leave the pit. wanna play masak-masak. lol...


we have chicken wings, beef, pork slices, balls, sausages, taiwan sausage, shrooms, bacon dan lain lain lagi... and we were all stuffed!


i forgot to take pictures of the booze tho. we got heineken, few bottles of red wine, a bottle of champagne, a bottle of rose wine, sake, leong fun, coke and 100 plus.


yummy beef marinated by nicholas. ^^

after all of us overdosed ourselves with food. we rested a while... and i was being taught how to play chor dee. joel and jessi taught me b4 but i slow in catching up. so brandon and louise taught me again. my spot then was taken over by isaac, who lost like mad and being made to drink sake + red wine. campur. @.@

close to midnight, we opened the champagne which was sponsored by Jasmine and we cheers once it striked midnite. right after kampai-ing, i received his call. :) then followed by ju's sms. and at the same time, kit and EJ made it just in time for new year...

and... the fun begins. the guys were throwing each other into the pool. well, most of it thanks to kit, cos he just need to carry, and *doosh* drop them in the pool. lol... kit even managed to carry paul! but then kit lost his balance and fell in the pool. there goes his shoes... =.=
they almost got me but yea... my auntie visit saved the day. :P

after cleaning up, everyone headed home.

thanks to everyone who came, contributed and sponsored.

and yes, i will calculate the amount and claim them from our beloved TLs :- Samson and Isaac.

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after the bbq, i joined EJ to send her friend home and went for night viewing. again, it was breath taking and i didnt take any pictures. =.=
she was telling her stories...
after night view, went to mamak a while and then headed home.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year

LilMsThong wishes all a very

Happy New Year 2011!

Have a great new year ahead! :)